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Joseph as he is leaving the gas chamber in basic training. If anyone wishes his address who does not already have it so that they can mail him by all means leave me a message

3 times an easy path was offered, 3 times it was refused. The journey up Mt Olympus has begun. What is this lowly human to do? Stand will I on my own to feet, and travel where I must. My heart shall be gone for months at a time, so now what am I to trust?

"Fake It"

Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self-esteem along the way
Yeah

[Chorus:]
Good god you're coming up with reasons
Good god you're dragging it out
Good god it's the changing of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down
And just fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like affection
Woah you're such a fucking hypocrite

And you should know that the lies won't hide your flaws
No sense in hiding all of yours
You gave up on your dreams along the way
Yeah

[Chorus]

Whoah
Whoah

I can fake with the best of anyone
I can fake with the best of em all
I can fake with the best of anyone
I can fake it all

Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self-esteem along the way
Yeah

[Chorus]

Fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Woah you're such a fucking hypocrite

Comment on this entry, and I will:
1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, a word etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ.

I do not like chain letters and try not to send them but the blessing in one I recieved was good enough for me to want to share. Those of you with enough magical talent should pick up on what is behind it as well. It is meant to be shared though there is no wish with it like chain letters imply.

"May today there be peace within.
May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others.
May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given
to you.
May you be content with yourself just the way you are.
Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us."

Was sick and still went Friday and wasn't going to play until I realized that the event was going to be small enough that NPCs would drastically outnumber PCs especially since some of the players coming down from Pittsburgh had the same thought of NPCing only. So a bunch of us switched and sick and all I still helped in the kitchen (touched food as little as I could) and played. Had a few "I'm Amazed" moments regarding my character. I've only been playing like three years now and only at the NERO KY events but with goblin points and getting a few lucky items I had more body than most of the players that came (20), and I swing 12 from behind (rogue) meaning I was swinging as much/more as the big guns that were at the event. So sick and feeling useless from the get go I actually turned out to have some usefulness. I also managed to surprise some of the NPCs with how silent I could be for my size since I was waylaying them left and right. But everyone had fun, and most were limping by the time everything was said and done because of the long two hour mod in the woods up and down hills jumping across a creek and all the while the raging battle going on. The out of town people thought we were the most hard core chapter ever. Overall, had a good time got massive amounts of treasure nobody insulted me enough to curse them (gypsy) or death them and my character has grown in fame for her "magical hands" since I spent a decent amount of time giving hand massages for the casters and shoulder massages for the fighters managed to make about 40 gold with them.
So I've spent two days recovering and am mostly back to normal now NERO did a lot of good with the interaction and so on to help my over all mood. Though I'm still feeling a bit down and feel like I'm getting used some or maybe its just I've been feeling selfish I haven't decided but my over all mood is a bit better.

Hm... what wouldn't I do if I won the lottery especially the big jackpot 100+ million?

List that comes to mind:
1. Pay all debts owed for me, my husband and some close friends (400,000 budgeted)
2. Buy a big plot of land At least 30 acres preferable with springs and caves or something of that nature for fun. (1,000,000 budgeted)
3. Build my dream home, possibly looking like a castle with some outbuildings to be used for refare and weddings to have some outside sustainable income on property (property tax is expensive) Make it self sustaining with farming, solar equipment and whatever else is needed to live off grid. (farm equipment and stuff too)(5,000,000 budgeted)
4. Put back money for college for my children and maybe a couple of friends children. (600,000 budgeted)
5. new vehicles, maybe one of my dream cars too. (200,000 budgeted)
6. Go to college myself (100,000 budgeted)
7. Set my mother up with an acre of land and a small house away from mine by atleast an hour. And a car.(250,000 budgeted)
8. Make a few family members who I know will want money sign contracts stating that after they have been given 30,000 a piece they're never EVER to ask me for one penny again. (The individuals already owe me money are drug users and I know they'd hop on the chance to get more every chance they got) (140,000-200,000 budgeted)
9. Make a donation to some foundations that are worthwhile.(2,000,000 budgeted)
10. Set up investments, IRAs and whatever (5,000,000 budgeted)
11. See the world in style with friends maybe buy an italian villa to excape to near the sea or somewhere a villa near the sea so I can take friends and family with me and relax. (5,000,000 budgeted for now)

So budgeted is 19,750,000 wow.... So I guess. more investments and maybe giving some money to friends for spending money IDK but that is what I've come up with so far.

I have decided that I am to much of an empath to continue on putting up with this job as much as it is perfect for my schedual needs. PLEASE! If anyone knows of a job I could do that is either in Lexington or within a 30 minute drive of it let me know.
Thanks.

Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.”

So the results of my tests from two weeks ago are in. I have Metabolic Syndrom, the precursor to Type 2 Diabetes. Basically meaning my body is not properly processing any type of insulin which is why I can't ever seem to lose weight no matter what diet or exercise plan I do (and yes I have been dieting even if it doesn't show) So now I'm on medicine Glucophage (Metformin) 850mg (a giant damn pill that my body immediately wants to get rid of when swallowed because of its size) once a day for one week then twice a day in a hope to correct this issue drastically and allow me to lose weight and have normal periods and get a normal life and hopfully concieve easier once things are corrected since this is also the reason I seem to have so much troubble with that sort of thing. He said since it has always been like this that it is most likely the reason I have been this way all my life. Nice to know after hm... 11 fracking years of screwed up periods. I just thought the few people left who still give a damn would like to know the results. Wish me luck and when around me keep me in line if need be.

Peace and happieness to all *hugs*